SOME DAYS I WONDER WHAT IF I NEVER WENT NATURAL. FOR THOSE WHO HAVEN’T EXPERIENCED THE BC FIRST HAND, THEY CAN’T RELATE. AFTER I CUT MY HAIR I KNEW THERE WAS NO TURNING BACK, I WAS SCARED AND FELT THE LONELIEST IN MY LIFE AT THAT TIME. THERE WAS NO ONE IN MY LIFE I FELT AS THOUGH COULD RELATE WITH ME OR HOW I WAS FEELING. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I WAS COMPLETELY LONELY. I TALKED TO MYSELF MOST DAYS AND BARELY EVER LEFT THE HOUSE. IN THOSE FIRST TWO MONTHS AFTER CUTTING MY HAIR OFF I LEARNED SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF AND CHARACTER. IT WAS ALSO THE PIVOTAL MOMENT IN MY LIFE WHERE I LEARNED TO LOVE MYSELF, NAKED. NAKED AS IN NOTHING TO HIDE BEHIND. I HAD NOTHING TO HIDE ANYMORE, IF YOU LOOKED AT ME YOU COULD SEE RIGHT THROUGH ME. I MISS THAT PHASE IN MY LIFE, I FEEL AS THOUGH THERE ARE STILL SOME THINGS I DID NOT LEARN. AFTER CUTTING OFF MY HAIR I LEARNED TO FALL IN LOVE WITH ME. IT WAS THE MOST AMAZING TIME IN MY LIFE. A TIME OF SELF-REFLECTION, SELF-ASSESSMENT, AND SELF-DISCOVERY. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I WILL NEVER RETURN BACK TO A RELAXER EVER AGAIN, I DID NOT COME THIS FAR TO LOVING ME JUST TO LET GO TO LEARN ALL OVER AGAIN. It has been one of the best decisions I’ve made thus far.

(Source: forbrowngirls)